Sans focus

So it's safe to say that on the running/athletic front 2008 has royally sucked. My knee is still giving me serious problems: no matter what I do I can't go more then 3-4 miles without pain and if I don't take Tylenol or Advil before, the pain is crippling. Because of this, I can't start a training program or hold onto any of my goals for this year--which means that I have no focus whatsoever.

Nowadays, instead of looking forward to the gym, it's become a chore. I can't do what I want to do (run) and I have no real goal, so my only reason for going to the gym is for fitness--and that really doesn't motivate me. Funny thing is, running is the only exercise that does this to my knee. Walking and cycling for long periods of time don't induce pain.

My only option right now is to go in for physical therapy with my Orthopedics's office. I gave them a call yesterday only to find out that while they'll take my insurance for doctor appointments they don't take my insurance for physical therapy. WTF? So now I'm trying to log-in to the Cigna website to find a local PT place...which may or may not be fruitful.

God is this frustrating. Compound this with my ridiculous work schedule form the past few weeks, preparing for taxes, and some personal finance issues and you have probably the least enjoyable month of February ever. Thank God for that ski trip.


Amanda said...

So true that not being able to run is a big demotivator...maybe though you can start race walking? Ok no it's really not the same, hope the doc helps...if not well you're going to have to become like a heavy duty weight lifter or something.

Steve Stenzel said...

Wow, good luck with the pain. Not running is the worst!

Nitmos said...

Keep plugging away. Better days are ahead. Health insurance? Is there a more messed up industry than this?? Maybe you'll rehab your knee simply by jumping through all the hoops your insurance will put in front of you.